矛盾的平瀏海

When he’s asking me do I have any weakness And I just reply it my way “I don’t have any” U know what he told me? He literally just said “mayb some guys like me” I feel like ermmmmm… wait? Halo? Did he literally feel like I’m so into him? Really? Mayb I use to but I didn’t tell anyone But when he said that.. I was like omg he’s a bit over confidence d I think Or mayb he just try to tease me only I felt like noooooo straight away turn me off wheyyy Somemore He’s like never wanna look at my stories Isn’t he’s an anti social? I feel like he don’t even care tho :/ Well we will end up somehow And I’m leaving 

I know that we’re not kids anymore  We don’t have to text everyday or keep update what we are doing now these kind of things So that I’ve got to distract myself a little and focus more on j and also my work Even though I’m still thinking abt him all the time But at least I got distracted a bit if I got friends and work around Tried to text him with an emoji last time  But he’s not giving me any respond Not even online on WhatsApp but social media yes Then he reply me the next day with a “yes?:)” I was so not in the mood to talk to him So I just said “no :/  & after awhile with another text with “u go busy la byeeee” It was funny  He just seen Somehow I felt like I’m so stupid  But it’s ok u know We don’t hv to do that tho We are in a grey zone  Just keep it neutral Today after he replied me on the ig reel that I shared last night abt a very cool girl recomposing traditional instruments tgt with edm, it was so cool that I felt like I should share to him ...

 How am I drag myself into this mess Not sure why & how Been kept thinking abt the same person for more than 2 weeks time What’s going on? Life is strange My thoughts too

It’s nice to really had a chance to just sit down, relax n listen, enjoy to the jazz band It’s like I always wanted to but just no one around me that can really accompany me to do that So that I didn’t really got a chance or reason to do so This time I make a chance for myself Also I’m glad that I get to know a guy that he’s really know jazz music and also love music We kind of clicked in some way tbh I got a long time didn’t feel that amount of shyness driving me so deeply to a man like that From the way he talk to me, his vibes, his attitude makes me so shy n I couldn’t even look at him for long He knows we shouldn’t be like this We clearly know that But mayb just me feeling that way N he just try to b flirty only