I’m happy

I know that we’re not kids anymore 

We don’t have to text everyday or keep update what we are doing now these kind of things

So that I’ve got to distract myself a little and focus more on j and also my work

Even though I’m still thinking abt him all the time

But at least I got distracted a bit if I got friends and work around

Tried to text him with an emoji last time 

But he’s not giving me any respond

Not even online on WhatsApp but social media yes

Then he reply me the next day with a “yes?:)”

I was so not in the mood to talk to him

So I just said “no :/ 

& after awhile with another text with “u go busy la byeeee”

It was funny 

He just seen

Somehow I felt like I’m so stupid 

But it’s ok u know

We don’t hv to do that tho

We are in a grey zone 

Just keep it neutral

Today after he replied me on the ig reel that I shared last night abt a very cool girl recomposing traditional instruments tgt with edm, it was so cool that I felt like I should share to him abt this

I just reacted with a heart emoji and then left

Later, I feel like mayb he’s free now

I should just text him anyway

Who cares

Mayb he’s waiting for me tho

Then today he’s replying me fast

Every msgs too

We had a good chat today

He told me he’s going to a very nice musical concert tmr

He’s literally pass a “lame gig” he mentioned that night just to take time to go for this

He’s so passionate, I can feel that he loves music so much that he willing to make so much effort to always choose for the what is right for him to go

Well I love this attitude actually

Which I couldn’t 

Mayb I used to be but now I couldn’t 

Im enjoying listening to him when we talk abt music and art

I do like to listen to him when he’s talking

He’s tone.. the way he speak gently 

Im surprise that the concert he mentioned to me just now is one of my most wanted to visit event when I travel to kl last time

Bcz the date is not match

I told him abt this and he was surprised too

He told me it would be nice if I’m there with him to the concert 

I felt the same too.. I replied 

He said “can I kidnap u back to kl again?”

I was so happy to hear that tbh

At least I know he miss me fr

I got few moments I realised that I kept smiling when I was thinking abt him

What so sweet to make me like that? Really? Like realllyyy? I ask myself

It just happened naturally 

Oh girl…

He said he really wanted to take me out again

Might wan me to get tipsy again I guess? Haha

Nope, not in Penang 

Penang is such a small island

I’m not going to drag him into this