矛盾的平瀏海

Dec is a month to review n look back to  New people new things new place always gives attention to me I think this is my personality  I feel like I can easily feel overwhelmed  I met new friends It is juz that simple New friends that I had a total diff life compare to mine Seen many diff places & countries  Had many friends from diff countries  Well not to compare  My life is good too I have a good companion good friends around Get to see & at least get to experience travel solo  Talk n meet new people from diff countries Yea I think at least I did it before I’m glad for everything that I’ve gone through  From my past till now For whatever I have rn I’m blessed  And I’m grateful for being ME Just being me, the way I like myself the way I will b

It's getting more worst after then I guess is because C is too pro and too big in the art industry when I look at myself I feel like a potato.. a real tiny one of course I know that he's doing completely diff art way that I am but he's doing so so well that makes me feel so bad to myself and feel like what am I doing now  what am I to meet him for I got nothing good to share to him.. I mean like nothing much abt the art scene that I can share I don't even have much friends who are still working in this art scene kind of lost sometimes didn't even know what to do to sustain I know I have to keep on creating art that's what I know don't expect anything but keep on practice on my work first, at least for now sometime I feel like is it the right time or right thing to meet him? girls thing.. we think a lot I feels like I some how given him some disappointment.. shit on what im not sure maybe im not a full time artist? or I dont hv much experience in the art scen...

Talking about this new friend that I just met recently he's an officially full time artist I guess, maybe what he showing online is all about his art  He is C tbh I know him bcz of Nk C had an exhibition before at kl that he invite Nk to play for his opening that time was also a bad timing, but im manage to go a day before the opening in a very short time before I head back PG I don't know much of a 3D artist but he had such an amazing work ngl consider one of the very rare 3D artist in Malaysia that had so many exhibition before and also he's work has been globally exhibit at many other countries as well tbh looking at him im like a potato don't even feel myself as an artist anyway but he's friendly anyway gives me a little relieve when he came in to find me and talk to me yea, he had a whole month exhibition at Hin bus anyway hinbus even got a new room for him to showcasing his work I don't even know that's a room like that before maybe it use to b a cafe?...