I think I'm not okay

It's getting more worst after then

I guess is because C is too pro and too big in the art industry

when I look at myself I feel like a potato.. a real tiny one

of course I know that he's doing completely diff art way that I am

but he's doing so so well

that makes me feel so bad to myself

and feel like what am I doing now 

what am I to meet him for

I got nothing good to share to him.. I mean like nothing much abt the art scene that I can share

I don't even have much friends who are still working in this art scene

kind of lost sometimes

didn't even know what to do to sustain

I know I have to keep on creating art

that's what I know

don't expect anything but keep on practice on my work first, at least for now

sometime I feel like is it the right time or right thing to meet him?

girls thing.. we think a lot

I feels like I some how given him some disappointment.. shit

on what im not sure

maybe im not a full time artist? or I dont hv much experience in the art scene?

but since we already met

and of course he asked first 

so I guess jus go casual

jus friends from a lil diff scene by now

bc I mentioned to him that im more to a musicians rn

yea indeed

im trying to find more way to switch myself to b an artist these days

hopefully one day I can make it

I really gotta work harder on the art side ngl

I really need to exhibit more and gain more experience in this art scene

because I really wish that one day I can become a full time artist

and also be more professional as an artist