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Cats cats cats ❤ Isn't it cuteeee? Owhh ❤ I'm totally in love with her, she is fluffy, pretty, charm, good and blablablabla (It is too cute and too good to say, haha) Her name is Fin Fin~ hohoho extremely cute :P She is not my cat actually, she is my classmate's cat. Remember one day she told me she also those cats crazy and she currently own one, I was like "When where? When I can go your house??" hahaha   Solo shot, hehe  Miao ❤ She looks like Lion here! Rawrr I start to miss her already, when we can meet again? :) She is Fin Fin's owner, Chelcie who wants to become fashion blogger in the future  (same with me haha)  Become a fashion blogger, we should make sure we're hardworking enough  to dress up nicely most of the day, ermmm.. but you know.. sometime we just lazy and always like "cincai laa" lol .  She also follow many fashion blogger like Jane chuck, daphne charice, ashley and more..  (me too haha)  As ...

2013 seems past so fast, it's already middle of August... Time flies! I got a lot friends born in this month (include my BFF: Abbie, ZiXin&Potato) Three of them are LEO, just me LIBRA. One thing I want to apologize.. I really really really sorry to them, cuz I can't celebrate with them and even forgot their birthday! Hollyshit...... I only send belated birthday wishes to them on the next day :( All I have to do was go pick some nice present and give them when I meet them...  feeling very sorry, 连好朋友的生日都忘记 :( Everytime when September comes, I will feel like don't want to face it. I always wish or pretend  that my birthday is pass or maybe no "birthday" such thing.. I really scare of this day. 希望越大, 失望越大 I scare my friend might also do the same like me, forget my birthday or what.. I don't mind they got any celebration for me or not, cuz I really don't want to think too much :x Some more my birthday is on Tuesday, it's weekday, so don...

Yup, I'm back Penang again :) Is time to let me continue my Part 2: Being a Tourist Guide again! This post will going shortly.. All about FOODDDD~~! All we want is food! haha.. As everyone know that Penang is a 美食城! So trying all nice food in Penang is also the main idea of coming to Penang! haha  This is Penang famous Loh Bak, with their special sauces Most of the penangties are Hokkien, so they call this Hokkien Mee but in Ipoh we just call this Har Mee  I like to have Satay as my supper if I'm hanging out with friends (I know this is totally oil and fatsss) but this really a good food for chilling :P Roasted Fish must have a try! Especially the sour sauce!  I ate too much that day, I'm gaining weight again! shxxttt... tomorrow no dinner please!

I suppose to post my [Being tourist guide again part 2] right now, but unfortunately all my photos are left in my pc in Penang. I din't bring them back home..zzz  Sorry guys, you guys have to wait me back Penang then only can continue my last post...    I have nothing to do in this boring empty Sunday, so I decide to write a random post. Yup, I'm on my semester break now! My sem-break started last week, yeah, as I posted my status before on Facebook, I wrote " I want to spent all my time to music for this two weeks semester break! " At first, I guess that I will fill up my holiday with non-stop practicing sing, dance and guitar or whatever related to music, but I'm not that hardworking girl than I thought myself was. I do wasted some of my time on some anime and overslept... LOL The first week of my holiday, I only go practice once for the [KKING] competition. Actually I was planning to practice everyday or maybe 3 to 4 times a week, but...

STOP "Emo" anymore! Is time to post some of my happy memories :D I have long time din't post my life's good and nice places that I been through. Have to update my wonderful time to all my readers. (even I'm not a popular blogger, but we should share our good to others right?  *peaceee hehe) Last weekend, I went back to my hometown [IPOH] to attend the first meeting of all TOP 50 contestant in the [K KING 2013 SINGING COMPETITION] that I mentioned before. This is a very important meeting for us because we have to pick our number for the next TOP 50 pre-competition, pick which teacher to lead us for the crossover performance, schedule, music video competition things...  Although I already knew the summary and rules of this competition but I still have to listen carefully again cause it is things that about two years ago, lols.  Before the meeting start, we going to visit the [Fitness Embassy] which is one of the sponsor of our competition. hmm...

从来没想过我也会做这种事 1.倒追: 我还真的第一次那么直接的倒追 (我也不知哪来的勇气? 我是疯了吗?) 我还真害怕被老朋友知道这件事 因为他们铁定会跌破眼镜! 因为以前的我 是出了名的"高閗"类型 以前我只会不停的拒绝 而且还是很"绝"的那种 显然的 我真的很爱面子 =_= 因为哥哥曾经告诉过我 "你还那么小, 学人家拍什么拖, 你懂什么是爱吗?" 这句话影响我很大 因为事实如此啊 所以在中学时期 无论有谁追求 我都是拒绝的 一直坚持着 怎样都要毕业了 或中5才可以拍拖 因为那根本不是爱 只是憧憬而已 拍什么拖? 浪费时间而已 不是吗? 所以当我一开始拍拖了 朋友都会很惊讶的说 "哇~~! T拍拖了叻?! 是谁这样厉害哦?? 他是做了什么啊?" 但是我还真的拒绝过一个 追我应该有两年了的一个男生 到现在我还很记得... 因为他的朋友说 他曾经因为我 他哭了 所以说回来 我竟然会放下我这种那么爱面子的人的面子去倒追??? 我又不是没有人追 又不是很差 我干嘛要拒绝完其他的人 然后去倒追啊?? 我还真的是疯了 我需要去看医生吗? 我也不知我喜欢他什么鬼 人有时候就是很神奇 2.送男生礼物 这个听起来很平凡啊 可是问题在于 我记得我送给我的"初恋"的礼物 只不过临时随便找两个陶瓷杯子 DIY两下就送了 但这次 我居然买了RM100++的礼物来送给一个 不是我男朋友的人! 我又不是钱多! 哪来的这么舍得去花这么一笔钱 去买一份那么重的礼物 去送一个根本不知道是什么关系的人啊?? 再次声明 我又不是没有比他更好的男生追我 我本来是喜欢音乐才子的吗 然后又不是没有音乐才子追我! 怎么现在会@$%#??? 来人啊 我真的是病得很严重 我觉得我需要去打给911了 不然找人来打死我算了 快! 拿吉他来K我! 3.演戏 哇! 还演戏叻! 不给人笑死去算了?! 我真的不敢去面对我那班老朋友了 我们常常都会在连续剧里看见 当这个女生想测试一个男生时 ...

"越喜欢炫耀的人,  越没安全感" 看书时看见这句话      心里想想 好像真的没有错 这句话影响我很大      所以每当我发现那些比较爱炫耀的人时 都会有一种莫名的悲伤 不是在取笑或什么 只是觉得这些渴望被人们称赞的孩子们 其实要的都很简单 就只不过是想要得到那么一点点的肯定 感受那份喜悦 因为这样别人就会看见你 也会比较有存在感 心里自然的就会比较有安全感了 其实我是一个很悲观的人 很容易emo 很容易哭 很容易想不开 很容易受伤 但是我天生就不喜欢哭 不喜欢流泪 因为哭, 很累 也许会选择在深夜里 卷在被单里偷偷哭 也许会在一个人走在一个陌生的街道上emo 尤其是今天 我发现 其实我更讨厌无助的感觉 那种真的没有办法自己解决 需要别人帮助的时候 却真的没有一个人能来救我 打了好多通电话 想了好多好多方法 但结果 还不是要一个人硬着头皮 选了个很不想选的选择 自己一个人离开 其实 这种很不安全的状况 已经发生过不止一次了 但是 我又能怎样? 我可找谁? 谁? 我真的好害怕 如果哪一天 我真的发生了很严重的事 在那个时候 会有人来救我吗? 又会有人发现吗? 我真的不知道 但随着年龄的增长 我的想法改变了 不知几时起 我学会隐藏自己 藏得比以前还要深 还要严重 我已经开始不喜欢对别人说我的心事 不喜欢发表过多的意见 不喜欢被看懂 不喜欢懦弱 不喜欢被同情 不喜欢被发现 因为 反正到最后 我还不是自己一个人 有人说: 强忍着难过,  心, 其实更痛 也有人说: 想哭就憋着, 伤口, 会很难愈合 我知道,  泪水能治疗伤痛, 也能洗涤一切.. 一个人的角落, 可以哭; 噪音喧哗的角落, 可以哭; 看电影, 可以哭; 听一首歌, 可以哭; 但是有一种人, 天生就不喜欢透漏真实的悲伤; 天...