Remind me

Had a call with N last night

Our time zone is seriously huge diff

My 2am is actually her 11am 

She just woke up and I’m about to sleep

We did a little update of ourselves

She told me that I’m one of the “doesn’t even aged look” kind of friend

Then she always shows her friends our photo

Cz we are those “young look Asian women” 😂

We chat a lot like a long lost time that we use to have

She’s getting a green card

Like I wasn’t that surprise but also very excited and was happy to hear that

It’s good that they’re taking the next step to their future

Well also bcz she need that green card to at least get a job there

So it’s a pros and cons?

She don’t feel like wan to share this out yet 

So we just keep it as our secret

At least for her for now..

And we exchg our secret 

I told her about T

Like I already wanting to tell her b4 

When I was still struggling with all those complicated feelings

But luckily I’m ok now

And I told her calmly that it’s passed

“We fade out naturally like it’s nothing happened 

Cz we clearly know that our situation is not allow us to have any other further changes to what we are now”

So just let it b

“To the grave!”

We said this many times last night

Telling her this not to want her to give me any advise

But just to feel a lil relief at least

Cz I already been through it myself

But it’s good to share a lil with my trusted friend like her

I feel a lil lighter now

Thank god that I still have good friends around me

Telling someone how I feel really makes myself feel better

Not to worry how they will think abt me

But just say what I want to say

Sharing thoughts, no judgement no disrespect, don’t hv any extra advises 

Just chat, sharing

Just as simple as that

I guess that’s what a girl would like to have

“Quality chatting time”